12:40 AM
Have you ever depended on something so much it could make you shake when its not there?
Music.
Its my life.
Its something I cannot explain.
If I don't listen to it after awhile, I start shaking.
If I dont Sing after a while I feel depressed.
You guy's probably don't believe me.
No one believes me.
You guys wont EVER understand.
You probably think this is just another thing I decided to write.
Fiction?
No.
It really isn't.
I have a feeling I'm driving myself insane. Music is my life And I'm scared shitless of life itself because I know after school once I'm on my own. I'm really on my own. I'll be out of this safe little life I'm living right now and I'll have to make it on my own and...I'm afraid I'll never live up to anything guys I...I dont know what to do anymore... I want to be something let me be SOMETHING not just someone who'll be forgotten over time. I want to be remembered for me. I want people to see me.
I'm scared.
Really scared.
I cant tell anything about myself right now.
I'm a wreck.
xoxo
Chels
written, Thats All She Wrote
