Friday, February 23, 2007
huh...
2:49 PM

This has been said so many times that
I'm not sure if it matters
We never stood a chance

And I'm not sure if it matters
If you are the shores,

I am the waves begging for big moons
I'm mailing letters to addresses in a ghost town
No oh~
Your secrets out...

Hey Guys (no im not SEXIST!) [[LONG POST]]
I'm rather bored and in the com lab[23rd feb] when i SHOULD go home!
eh....cant be bothered :P
Dammit I feel like I'm getting old...but you know what? I'm scared...
Yes I know it sounds gayyy but I'm truly afraid yet excited about my future.
Does that make you want to turst me?
Does that make you want to love me?
Does that make you Want to tell me everything~?
Hah...
Naive young one
I'll just leave you hanging high and dry!


I know this hurts,
it was meant to
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over (you don't) matter

This Is a warning to all who befriend me...
I never meant to hurt anyone...
Yet I have...
(DWI THIS IS A DRAMA POST DONT READ IF YOU DONT WANT TO)
So... Maybe I am a Bitch...
But you dont matter to me...
Not unless we're close...
But you dont matter...
To anyone you dont know...
You are insignificant to others who dont know you...
Nice perspective isn't it?
So no I dont give a shit about you unless we're close....
Sorry to burst your bubble darling >_O

This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters
But it must be said again that all us *girls are just screaming
Into microphones for attention
Because we're just so bored
I never knew that you would pick it apart,
ohI'm falling apart to songs about hips and hearts


"Jeez she's such a bitch..."
"Whats her problem?"
"OMG She really said that?!"
"WHAT A SLUT!"
Hmm....
Sound familiar my dear readers?
Don't lie.
You must have said these lines at least once...
Or heard them a thousand times by airheads who dont know a damn thing...
Naive little twits who think life will be handed to them on a freakin' silver platter...
But I must apologise to those airheads...
Your gonna get old.
You probably will lose your shine.
You probably wont amount to anything if you dont pay ATTENTION.
Beauty is over rated...Its dust in the wind...

Yawn...
Your Boing me here...
All im hearing is "me me me" when i want to hear this "..."
Get my point?
Good.
Knew you would.
Please...
Know that i dont need attention.
Thats not why I'm in a band or sing...
Sure I want to be heard.
For my lyrics.
So stop picking at it...
Jeez.
Go fall apart to songs about hips and hearts....

I used to obsess over living,
Now I only obsess over you
Tell me you'd like *girls like me better
In the dark lying on top of you
This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters


Huh...
Living...
We all do it...
Why obsess over it any longer...
I mean I want to obsess over my hero's...
Not anyone else.
So I'll obsess over rock bands
That keep me sane....enough.

Boys really shouldnt lie.
They really shouldnt when they know what they want.
When they want a badass chick or someone who doesent give a shit.
They come to Dwi or Me or The girls in 2/8
So boys~
Dont lie.
You'd prefer us better and you know it.

This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters

Dont lie

This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters

Dont freakin lie!

I know this hurts,
it was meant to
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over (you don't dont dont) matter

Haha...
Nice one...
A secret no one was dupposed to know...
Like i really care that u stole a sweet?
Jeez.
I dont care.
Some secrets are best left unknown.
So like i said you dont matter.

Not one bit.


From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said "Why put a new address on the same old lonliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address on the same old lonliness?
and this is you
and me and me and you
until we've got nothing left

Damn why are we still ruled by what everyone elese thinks?
I mean if it weren't for the music i'm listening to I'd still be the same
"I'll do anything to be your friend just like me"
Girl that was afraid to be something different
Know I dare
So watch out world
I'm comin! LMFAO...

Being lonely doesen't suck ya'know

So I'm just waiting for this cancer to eat me up
Slowly but surely it'll come...
And I dont want It to stop
Not now not ever.

*This lyric has been changed from "Boys" to Girls



written, Thats All She Wrote

Thursday, February 22, 2007
Damn this suckkkksss
8:35 PM

Hello all

School is slowly starting to suckkkkk

I mean OK friends are getting closer things are setting in but MR TAN FUCKING SUCKS!
I mean Holy Mother Of Strip CLUBS!!! DAMMIT!! Whats with his attitude?! He thinks he's all High and mighty but like no one even fucking likes him, his sarcasm is bitter and raw and makes you feel like crap and he NEVER listens...He does fucking INDICES EVERY FREAKIN DAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! We arent learning anything new and he's wondering why we're not paying attention?

I SIT IN FRONT AND I LISTEN TO MY CD PLAYER DURING CLASS! NO TEACHER HAS EVEN NOTICED!!!

Now is that bad or is that BAD?!

Ugh...I just feel Numb with school, i've had enough but i know that I need this education to have something to fall back on...Point is I NEED it, I dont WANT it...

I feel im wasting my life away... I barely go out, I barely get up off of my ass when I turn on the TV and LapTop hell that was what I did straight after SYF practice...


The Pain I feel Is So Strong...
Why Cant You See Me shiver?
Why cant you feel me hurt?
Why cant you see the tears I never shed till night fall?
Why?
A simple three letter word...
Yet It Holds So Much meaning in My heavy Heart....
She takes your hand...
You smile innocently...
Why isn't that me?
So I sit on your couch breathing
Its the last thing I can do
I remember seeing you two
With you on top...
Yet you still come into my room...
To say More than goodnight...
And I let you...
Oh I let you...
Over and over again...
So kiss me goodbye!
On e last time
To hate you so much i love you
was the last thing i whispaered
And here you are on my front porch with tears in your eyes...

"Dont leave me"'s and "Ineed you's"
But enough I s enough...
But what made me turn back were 3 words
"I LOVE YOU! DAMMIT I DO"
you yell
and that was enough to keep me by your side forever...

Yes that was an original

here is the came whore time!!!! Enjoy and Afredasay!
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IM SO PIMPIN
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I THINK THIS GUY Yin Hao is kinda hott...awesome funny guy :P ARE YOU BEING RACIST?! LMAO inside joke :P

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Monday, February 12, 2007
name by any other is just as painful
12:22 AM

Hi guys and Gals!

I think it has finally been deicded...
The name of my band...
I feel it somes uo everything the people in my band have gone through...
Now thats a lot of crap when you cometo think of it...
So...This is not a copy of any bands name...
I just feel it needed to be 3 words...
and the first word makes it more relatable...
Without further ado, i give you...











MY BEAUTIFUL DESTRUCTION









It somes up everything for me personally...
And I will post our fist band pic soon...
And I want to know what ya'll think...

much love and hate,
Chelsey----------Ng

KRUMPING


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Saturday, February 10, 2007
8:04 PM

GO TO MY STORY BLOG

www.rise-and-the-fall.blogspot.com

AWESOMENESSSS


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Friday, February 09, 2007
fftl
10:10 PM

helloooo




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgMUO1CbXRU <===== in case u cant see the vid go here.

FROM FIRST TO LAST

THEY FUCKING RULE~~~~~~~~~~


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OoOoOhhh post
12:17 AM

Hey PEOPLE!

Today was another boring yet interesting day at school. I would post about SYF training but I cant I'm uber sorry!

I'm actually pretty pleased cause today I think I did really well in my Science test, I don't know...Its like when you get that feeling before something good happens? That feeling.

I'm sketching again! LoL... I'm drawing to pieces at the present moment, one for GENEVIEVE and one for CHERLYN! ARGH!!! Stress... I was supposed to finish Cherlyn's by today and I wanted to give gen's her's tomorrow but I keep forgetting! DAMMIT! Grr...
I only have to finish Frank and draw Ray/Bob and I'll be done with Cherlyn's.
With Gen's I'm still deciding which pic I want to do, cause I want it to be nice right? So I'll put 2 pics, one of what Cherlyn's kinda looks like and one of what Gen's will sort of look like.

Gen (2)

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Cherlyn

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I'm also writing a fanfic on this other blog. And I'd like ya'll to read it and tell me what you think I already have like 7 chapters but i only posted the FIRST one.

ENJOY

AND band practice for My Beautiful Destruction [my band] starts next weeeekkk!

AWESOME!!!

I'm tryin to show you just how much you mean to me,
Chelsey------------------------------------------Ng

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Sunday, February 04, 2007
Addiction
1:05 AM

Can you feel the rain?
It doesent heal...
It doesent cleanse...
It doesent...Just doesent
It burns

like the sun on raw flesh...
It burns...
Like your eyes on mine in the middle of the night...
It Chills...
It chills me to my very core...
Your Breath on my skin...
"Its not over"... The words you whisper over and over....
The words...
That sting...
That make me shiver....
Yet they allure me so....
This place...
You...
Here...
Time...
Wasted time...
Walls...
The images implanted in my head...
Things done....
Never to be done again....
Eyes....
They wont leave my mind...
Why?....
Because....
Just Because...
Your my addiction...
I'm your drug....
The bane of my existance...
Is those kisses...
Those touches...
Those fingers...
They just keep me on the edge of my seat...
On this...
On that...
Here...
There...
ANYWHERE!
With you...
As long as its with you...
The stinging of my heart...
Will never go away...
I dont want it to go away...
Because of you...
As long as you're here...
My wonderfully...
Toxic...
Beautiful...
Addiction....



It just came to me and I had to type it out!... Maybe I'll put this in my school portfolio! LoL...Enjoy and comment!

Your Eyes Burn Like the Sun,
Chelsey-------------------Ng


written, Thats All She Wrote

Thursday, February 01, 2007
10:05 PM

IM GOING TO A

FALL

OUT

BOY

CONCERTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMFGOMGOMGOGMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

MARCH 3RD BABY!!! WHOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF YOU WANNA GO TELL ME AND I'LL GET YOU TIX FIRST THEN PAY ME BACK!!!

THIS IS THE LOVE.
CHELSEY NG


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